Start now. Start where you are. Start with fear. Start with pain. Start with doubt. Start with hands shaking. Start with voice trembling but start. Start and don’t stop. Start where you are, with what you have. Just … start.
Ijeoma Umebinyuo (via studentsoup)
Update on life. It doesn’t suck anymore. If it does I’m moving out of this country.
Land of debt.
After being completely bailed on today for lunch by my mom and my aunt, I understand that I have a too high of an expectations for family. In any sorts really. Sitting there waiting and having food set out to eat and you are suppose to be excited to have conversation and you know all that jazz, but really it was a set of disappointment. I don’t see the point of these anymore. I sit to get lectured or I sit Just to eat the food and leave. Within 25 minutes of dinner, I can leave. I think it’s stupid to be forced to these things just to leave right after. No joyous memories, just something unmemorable. It brought to me to notice that I get overly upset when people bail on switch plans, unless you know those obvious reason of emergency or/and safety.I don’t believe in bullshit excuses, just tell me what it is because really I can’t read your damn mind. I’m obviously going to call you on your pathetic lie and be even more agitated.
I do not like being forgotten or pushed aside. It gets me enraged and upset. One day, if pushed enough I’m sure I’ll snap.